
"Why don't you want to graduate?"
I've been asked this so many times by my friends and peers. It's actually a bit ridiculous. Perhaps even more ridiculous is the fact that I haven't given anyone a straight answer. The only response I have is "oh, I just don't want to." Not even witty, but just a childish response to a perfectly valid question. Truth is, I don't really want to let anyone know how I feel. I feel weird pouring out my heart out (is this an expression that people use?) to people I know in real life. And that's why I don't. And that's why I write about it online instead. Because I'm a chicken.

So I guess here's why. I know that once I graduate, I won't be seeing half of these people ever again. These are people that I've seen pretty much every day for the past 5 years. FIVE YEARS OF MY LIFE. That's over a quarter of my life! Insane, eh? Oh, plus people in other grades too.
But mostly, I'm afraid that I won't stay close with people who I've fostered friendships with. I'm pretty much going to be alone in university. As selfish as this is, I don't want them to make friends. I want to stay friends with them and I know this won't happen if they make friends in post-secondary. I don't even talk to most of my friends outside of school so how am I supposed to maintain a relationship without any contact.